It couldn't get any better.

I'm in love. I'm in love with how my life is going and I'm just feeling so satisfied and I just wonder how else could things get better? Surprisingly it does getting better day by day. I've been slowly learning how to pick myself back up and I have. Everything seems to falling back into place, I wouldn't say it's perfect, but it's getting close.

I'm getting my smile back, my confidence back, and my self-esteem. I've learned who my true friends are. My family is my true support system. And that when it comes to my heart, that I need to follow it.. even if it means being broken. But being broken can be a good thing. I'm opening my heart to someone who treats me soo good.

I don't know if I'm ever going to get things right the first time, but that's not me. I always need to learn things for myself. And if it's a mistake, than I'll take the lesson with me and move forward. There's no point in dwelling. Why not just be happy?

-Lim

I'm finally doing things that make ME happy.

Something I should have been doing a loong ass time ago.

-Lim

Satisfied!

These past few days I've been super happy. And why you make ask;

-I'm all set for graduation! Thank goodness for passing the math hspe.
-Senior ball is next weekend, and I have a great group to go with. Not to mention cutest dress, shoes and accessories to go with it!
-My parents have been such a great support system. Been planning our summer vacation plans. Which is something we haven't done in awhile.
-I have the BEST of friends any girl can have.
-My boyfriend is the most sweetest boy, everrr <3
-I'm all set for going to edcc for the fall :)
-Tryn find a 2nd job has been going good.
-& deciding on my plans for moving in the fall!

My plans are going so good, and nothing, I really mean NOTHING is going to stop me. I've always been a fighter. That won't change. As of right now I'm being pushed to my limits, but I don't mind proving people wrong. Go ahead and try me.

-Lim

You told me that we're not playing games..

and as scary as it may be

I'm taking your word for it.

-Lim

I love my MOM & DAD;

When it comes down to wire I must say that my parents mean everything to me. Even though we've gone through our rough patches, at the end I need to always remember that they love me and only want the best. I've felt really bad about the last few months and know I shouldn't have treated them the way I did.. but that's the thing with parents. They always forgive you.. even if they don't say it.

I'm just thankful for having parents who are understanding and just putting up with me being a brat.

-Lim

I'm the girl

that would eat at Mcdonalds rather than a fancy restaurant with a boy,
but a nice place to eat once in awhile would be fine with me.
I'd rather spend my night sleeping with him rather than sleeping on the phone,
and I wouldn't care if he sees me without my makeup in the morning.
I'd rather wear my pajamas to hang out with him at home rather than getting all dolled up,
but I will dress up when we go out
because if I were a boy
I wouldn't want to go out to many places with someone looking like a bum.
I wouldn't hang on to him in front of his boys,
but its a different story when he holds on to me in front of his boys.
I wouldn't sit around waiting for this calls or texts,
I would text first and if he doesn't answer to my text/call

then I wouldn't blast up his phone.
I'm the girl who doesn't mind playing the game,
but would prefer not to.

-Lim

I'm scared to let people in, but I'm still doing it.

-Lim

My advice;

You know how people say, "I wish I would've known what I know back then.."

If you knew, than you wouldn't have been able to learn your lesson. To grow and be who you are today. As high school is ending I really do wish I could turn back the time, but I can't. I don't want to say my time was wasted, but I felt like I could've done so much more. Even though I feel this way, I'm still taking what I can and doing what I gotta do.

Don't ever rely one anyone else to get what you want or think that someone is always going to be there for you because in the end the only person you can truly rely on is yourself.

I guess I'm back at square one, my trust issues are at an all time high now.. but if you were in my position wouldn't yours be too?

I gave my heart away a year ago to someone that I had foolishly thought was the one for me. But I had to be so naive to think that. It's weird to think that someone you would say I love you to almost every single day for over a year can turn a complete 180 and say hurtful things to you. Who knows your weaknesses and uses them to break you at each possible vulnerable chance they get.

I'm not giving him the satisfaction. Nothing he says is ever going to break me because I know I'm worth so much more and am finding someone who treats me like a princess.

My point of this blog is mostly to the girls out there;

be with someone who loves to see you smile, who will wipe your tears away when you're sad, will listen to your problems and even though he can't help just be a support, a guy that your parents approve of, someone that can be your friend first..

Just don't rush..

My heart aches for those girls who are in the same position I was in.. just be smart with your decisions. And just always remember to put yourself first.

-Lim

Insomia @ it's worst;

My sleeping habits have been so off lately. I've been trying to go to get at a reasonable time, but it never seems to happen. My mind is always just racing and I can't seem to turn it off when I want to. The times when I need to be focusing, I'm just thinking about sleeping.. this is not good.

I need to re-adjust. I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to do this. I'm thinking my lack of sleep is because I've been stressing over things when I shouldn't be. I need to just enjoy these last few days of high school and know that the future is holding something great.

-Lim

I adore Seattle, someone take me awayy please.

My rideeee ;)

been driving for 10 months,..

sorry for the dents but Imma get my baby all fixed up

When I looked you in the eyes. All I can feel is numbness in my heart. I don't love you anymore, I don't miss you. I don't long to be in your arms anymore. You're no longer that boy I fell in love with and my heart has finally let it all go. It was too broken to fix and now it's just time to pick up the pieces.

I just wish things would've been different. But there's no use in hoping anymore. I've reached an epiphany.. and it feels good. I won't regret, I won't dwell. I'm just going keep doing me.

-Lim

"And once you lose yourself, you have 2 choices: Find the person you used to be. Or lose that person completely."

-Brooke; One Tree Hill.

I'm not loosing my smile;

lately I've been just feeling so content and things are just turning around. It might be that now spring/summer is arriving. Or that I'm about to be out of high school, going onto college and just getting MY life together. Right now, I'm more considered with myself, family, and my true friends. I don't need any stupid drama in my life. I just need to stay focus on ME.

I'm going to stay happy and there's absolutely nothing that is going to bring me down.

-Lim

I wanna be with a guy who I'm not scared for my parents to meet.

-Lim

I have the best girls and homeboys a girl could ask for!

-Lim

The greatest realization;

I love surrounding myself with positive people, and so far I know who those people are! It feels good to know that there are still people out there who have great intentions. I'm over the drama and heart ache. All I need is some good time fun. And graduation + summer couldn't have come at such a better time in my life.

I'm really figuring who I am and what I wanna do. I lost myself for a moment but I'm BACK and I'm loving every minute of it ;)

-Lim

Never going to play the game again..

-Lim

I don't know why it's getting harder for me to hold things in. It used to be so easy and I find myself just at my breaking point. I'm just feeling frustrated, over-whelmed, and just embarrassed.. and it shows. I'm not even trying to hide it anymore. The more I try the harder it gets.

-Lim

I fell in love, and now I'm picking myself back up.

-Lim

Morning sunshine,

I love waking up the sun shining into my room, but I hate waking up from a bad dream.. I'm trying to be optimistic as optimistic as I can be, but I'm just scared to be. Sometimes I feel like when my hopes are up, something happens and I'm let down. I'm not tryna let fear hold me back from doing anything. But for some reason it is right now.

I'm trying to just shake this all off as much as I can. No more holding back. I'm putting it all out on the table. You can take me as I am, of step off. I'm not here to please anyone but myself. Yeah, I've mad plenty of mistakes. But if I didn't, I wouldn't be who I am today.

If it hasn't killed me by now, than I'm on the right path.

-Lim

you owe me a piggyback ride, will you get strong enough to carry me?

i am strong enough!

Ask me anything

why do you complain so much on facebook?

it's not complaining, it's venting.

Ask me anything

I can't wait to just move on, have my heart heal and find someone who can man up and is actually the person that I think they are. I've spent way too much time on this break up, crying for no reason!.. I just need to start being that happy person that everyone knows. That person I know I can be.

-Lim

ever slapped a ho?

No, but there are a few that need to be slapped!

Ask me anything

Happy Mother's Day

I love you mom, for always being that rock when I needed you to be there with me.

Don't want to hear it anymore,

you can go do your thing, but I don't want to hear about it anymore. I just feel like my heart is in the pit of my stomach. I don't need that.

-Lim

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now.."

"If he's dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go."

I'm going to let go of all of these.. the past it the past right?.. I guess that's where it'll stand as.

"My last love was my first true love."

-Lim

I'm still learning..

You'll never get anywhere in life if you don't have your self-worth.. if you don't know who you are. Right now my heart still feels completely torn, but there's nothing more I can do now but to let time heal.

Someone once said to me, love is like a mirror, but when the trust is broken, than that's like a crack in the mirror. Sure, you can "fix" the trust, but that crack in the mirror will always be there.. staring right back at you through your reflection.

The trust I had with him has destroyed that mirror and now there's no way to turn back. He was my first true love, my best friend and now I need to move on from it all.

I'm really starting to see who my trued friends are at least. And now I'm happy.. I feel like I've cried way too much that I'm soo over it. My tears have run dry, I just can't cry anymore. All I need right now are my family, my homegirls and those boys who always seem to have my back.

-Lim

Not letting it phase me,

I feel like it's getting harder for me to hold my head up high, but it's all I can do right now to stay strong. To be strong. To be who I used to be.

I don't like having people ask if I'm okay.. that's the last thing I want when I'm tryna be happy. More than half the time, I'm faking it. But that's just how I'm coping. I'd rather let people think I'm okay than worry people..

-Lim

My last love was my first true love... and that's a fact.

-Lim

Finding me,

In every relationship, it's always a bitter sweet ending. But when it's the end, than that's it and there's nothing more you can really do about it, but move on..

and that's exactly what I'm trying do. Yeah, I was sad about it. But now I just see this time to myself will be for me. To do my own thing. I felt like I lost myself, and it's just time for me to be on my own. I'm not ready to date anytime soon. I gave that boy my heart a year ago, and I'm just tryna get all the pieces back one by one, and that is going to take a lot of time. It had always been me and him.. and now it's just me. And I'm learning that doing just me is ok too.

But for now, I just really wanna be happy. Life move's on, it doesn't stop for anyone and I just have to keep moving forward with it.

-Lim

It's bitter sweet but Imma do me, no love shiit for awhiile!